~I'm Hoping You're Reading~



~I have written a letter 10 pages long full of how I feel and how sorry I am but that letter has gone unsent...I have written a blog that I don't feel like publishing because the words are meant for only your eyes..Still, here I am again. I don't want to have to e~mail you because I feel like you will respond just because you feel like you have to. That is not what I want. I want to say this to you and you know who you are..

~We are friends. No matter how much time goes by with nothing said between us, our friendship still goes on.I wish that I had realized that long ago so I wouldn't have pushed you away in the first place...Still, good times and bad, misunderstandings and unintended hurting of each other...Friends weather the storms and bask in the sun. I can either feel guilty for pulling away from you or I can say that I am sorry.I choose to say I AM SORRY. I was scared of getting hurt but in the end I hurt both you and myself. Now I don't get to know how you are doing and I don't get to talk to you.

~If you are reading this it means you care enough to come see how I am. That means a lot to me. If you have come this far will you come a bit further? You know my e-mail address and where I chat. Come say hi to me...Let's figure out and work through how to get passed the confusion and back to the laughing, joking and supporting another like we used to. 

~Or~ we can just say hello and leave the past behind...All I really want is to have YOU, the REAL you, come back to where we left off. I want to be friends...I promise to let go of the hurt, to let you in and to stop pushing you away, All you need to do is sign on...I will be waiting.

Love Your friend, Stacy

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