~To You Whom I Thought Was The Last For The Last Time~

Someday soon I will see your photo and it won't hurt me to breathe.
One day soon I will witness your name and it won't strike right through to read.
Someday, somewhere, I will run into you and I will easily find the steps away
but for now when I see anything you leave I feel my heart tear and fray.

There's a place for my heart in this world with a friend who will believe.
A place where I can be wrong but my love won't so simply leave.
I gave you all I had and then I gave you more.
Yet you took it all and said nothing before you walked out the door.

I have lost all hope where you and I ever breathed.
Where my love for you once was its now a sigh I relieve.
I cannot make you love me nor can I make you ever turn back.
If I could I would forever yearn for the wish that you lack.

I am here where you left me, living one day at a time.
I am waiting no longer for your soul and mine to rhyme.
Either you love me and can't see your way without me
or you're fine, and in that case I'm glad I am free.

Goodbye my lover, Goodbye to you and your shallow heart.
I am not sorry we tried, since you gave me hope from the start.
I will never be sorry for loving you.
I am only sorry that without me your heart will truly never be loved through
and through.

~Stacy J. Roosa

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