~To The Forces That Be~

O.k. God, or Kharma, or whatever out there has me stuck in one place (and so many of my friends too)...I have been without my freedom and ability to be a carefree Mom who can take her kids to the dr, to the movies and even to school...I have been without my car ~or any car for that matter ~for over 2 months. Now,the car I was driving was not some expensive thing nor did I get it cause someone else bought it for me. I worked hard to have it, to make the payments and I kept it well. I never complained that I wanted bigger,better or more.One day you decided to let some unlicensed driver slam into my boyfriend while he was on his way to work.He was badly hurt.I was already in the hospital because I lack insurance to take care of a stupid tooth that ended up almost taking my life.Now I have no car,no money no matter how much I save(because every time I save a thousand for a down payment a surprise bill for double that comes our way.) Jesse is forever stuck with no ride home,my friends have helped so very much that they should be made saints&my kids need to be able to do things this summer.I am begging you to stop teaching me a lesson or waiting till a better time and just allow me a break to get a car.It doesn't even have to be anything special.Just a car that is running would be a start.If I go any longer without one I am afraid I will forever be anxiety ridden and fearful of leaving the house. Is that why this happened? To show me that I was sliding down a hill that I might never be able to climb up? I have learned my lesson about not letting the world get to me...if that is what you intended...Whatever I did in this life, please stop taking it out on my kids? You have my Mom's very beautiful and loving soul, My Dad's memory and so many other things I won't even mention now..Leave my kids out of whatever mistakes I've made, please....I am begging you!

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