Writing a Book ? ! ?

I am so excited as I write my book that I am curving words to fast,the pages turning out so quickly that I have to S~L~O~W  down.  I want to take great care in building each character~Creating all the details of each person so painstakingly so they hopefully will come alive on the page to the reader.Everything from her appearance to the way she acts to what her favorite book is~I need to be sure to make her so believable that if I were to take her out of the book and put her in a room with a thousand other characters or real blood and skin,breathing people, anyone could point her out. They say to fashion the character to someone you know. OK, that's easy....

Then where she lives. her high school, her family...what is plot, aside stories,the point?? I have it all in my mind~ The character's life is like mine, she will have a past alike to my past but her future? I don't wish to have her stuck in place like me...

The hardest thing about writing the book is knowing to shut up and not over describe things.Very tough...then there;s the problem where I kept changing ideas. Now I am on an idea where I am forebading myself any change...It will be like an autobiography because it will be about parts of my life and it will be in first person but I will change enough of it to keep it from being all about me. People say to write about what you know...I am and although it will make it a little easier, the past haunts me. So while in the end I hope to put closure to my demons, I also have to push myself into the middle of things I locked away because they were hurtful. Maybe I should get a therapist too,lol..Actually not a bad idea.

I want to share my words, my story and my heart with the world and I want the world to care about my characters and to believe and love the story I paint. I am not going to rush this. I am going to take my time and try hard to make sure you,my reader, believe what you are reading and feel real emotion from it whether its sadness,joy,disgust or fear. More than anything, I want to finally have a voice, a purpose in the world...

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