A new Year
I know we all wait for January first to count a new year but it seems to make more sense to me now to make it new the day of my Birthday...Yesterday I turned 21...lol.....ok, not 21 but 36, and I am ready for lots of changes.I already started one,I deleted out all of my e-mail accounts that had nothing to do with being healthy and talking to people who truly care for me.I felt great immediately. I am no longer in any place where contact between me and my past is easy.
Now, onto my book. I am going back and forth as to whether to write my Novel about me and my life OR a love story of some kind (with parts of it resembling my life). I don't know that a book about ME is something I'm ready for since I don't know the ending yet. Still, what self-exploratory book truly ends concretely? It is okay to write a book with an ending that is the beginning. I know that the non-fiction book about my life will be difficult emotionally as it will span my life and include my being molested,having a depressed father,hurtful and trouble-making brother,cutting myself,drug addiction,my mother's death and my fathers failing health along with my sister,my kids, my relationship with Kevin and how now I am trying to fight agoraphobia, anxiety and depression as well as back,knee and other health issues. I need to really think about what I want to write or else I will continue to flip-flop on subjects and will get nowhere. Sure,I can write more than one novel but its important to me to work on only one at a time.
~I started a non-fiction book already...Even got through the first chapter, building the character and story line. Its important that I base each character on someone I have known so that I can make them real to the reader.Not to mention building their character to a point that even if its never used in the book itself, I could tell you everything about each character-what they love to eat,their first memory as a child,their first love,etc. If I don't know all that-create it, how will the reader truly believe that the person is real?
~I am excited. I can write,some people even say I have a gift. Whats important is that I feel that I have a gift and that I feel worthy of doing this. I do...I can do this and will do this and when I finally finish the book even if it never gets published or sees the light of the world's eyes it is still important and still a goal I set and reached. Still, there is no room for negativity, that girl died yesterday with my birthday~ I am positive and I can say here and now, I will work hard,write an amazing book or 5 and get them published to,(praying hard here) an adoring audience who gobbles up every word and wants more and more!
~I am ready to speak to the world...Hope you're ready for me!!!!!!!
~Stacy J. Roosa
7/6/2010
Now, onto my book. I am going back and forth as to whether to write my Novel about me and my life OR a love story of some kind (with parts of it resembling my life). I don't know that a book about ME is something I'm ready for since I don't know the ending yet. Still, what self-exploratory book truly ends concretely? It is okay to write a book with an ending that is the beginning. I know that the non-fiction book about my life will be difficult emotionally as it will span my life and include my being molested,having a depressed father,hurtful and trouble-making brother,cutting myself,drug addiction,my mother's death and my fathers failing health along with my sister,my kids, my relationship with Kevin and how now I am trying to fight agoraphobia, anxiety and depression as well as back,knee and other health issues. I need to really think about what I want to write or else I will continue to flip-flop on subjects and will get nowhere. Sure,I can write more than one novel but its important to me to work on only one at a time.
~I started a non-fiction book already...Even got through the first chapter, building the character and story line. Its important that I base each character on someone I have known so that I can make them real to the reader.Not to mention building their character to a point that even if its never used in the book itself, I could tell you everything about each character-what they love to eat,their first memory as a child,their first love,etc. If I don't know all that-create it, how will the reader truly believe that the person is real?
~I am excited. I can write,some people even say I have a gift. Whats important is that I feel that I have a gift and that I feel worthy of doing this. I do...I can do this and will do this and when I finally finish the book even if it never gets published or sees the light of the world's eyes it is still important and still a goal I set and reached. Still, there is no room for negativity, that girl died yesterday with my birthday~ I am positive and I can say here and now, I will work hard,write an amazing book or 5 and get them published to,(praying hard here) an adoring audience who gobbles up every word and wants more and more!
~I am ready to speak to the world...Hope you're ready for me!!!!!!!
~Stacy J. Roosa
7/6/2010
I would love to hear your opinions about what you think you'd like to see me write about...Not promising I will do it that way as my mind has a flow of its own but if you have an opinion as to what idea you like better-a bio or a fiction love story,let me know here,my e-mail or on face book.Thank you all for reading and being here for me.It means more than you will ever know!
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