~ You Left Behind The Best Part Of Me~

You once had all of this heart.
It was overflowing with such love for you
that not even your leaving could stop it's flow.
I imagined so often holding you in these arms
that they grew tired with the thought.
In my mind I've kissed you and whispered of my love
a thousand times.. .
These lips, these eyes and these ears
were all yours to have~
They each strained to be kissed by your love.
My thoughts were full of you
and my voice wanted so badly to call your name
but when I did and you weren't there,
it went silent.

 You once had this woman fighting her own pain
to love one more time,
to battle the fears of loving and falling all over again.
The hope I felt for us was like a dandelion seed on the wind
allowing you to pull and toss me anywhere
just to finally touch your skin
and feel love back from you.

 You once had all the best of me
yet you couldn't see it~
I didn't have a place in your world
and certainly no corner of your heart.
You took my love and let it spill from my heart
and my eyes.
You used what you wanted of me
to get all you desired
but you never realized,
you left behind the best part of me.

 © 2014 Stacy J French (Roosa) (All rights reserved)





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