~I Choose You~

To Bailey and Tessa, forever.

It is the pain not the love that got me to this place.
A place where I can look upon the ruins of life
and choose either to give into a fall into the darkness
or to fight gravity to find strength to overcome.


I choose you.


You are my reason to breathe
through the thick air that is doubt.
You are the way out of darkness
and the future when all I can see is an end.


I choose to see you grow
and to watch your beautiful hearts continue to give such selfless love
that pride grows in me like a flower blooming.
Rather than succumb to the pain that shoots through my own heart,
and the lull of a promised sleep, I choose to be here with you.


Its easy to give up.
So simple to close my eyes to the pain and to the doubt...
Yet to dig down deep  into myself and to take a deep breath
no matter how much it stings~
To pull up and out all this pain and push it onto the page
instead of letting it comfort me to sleep~~
That is hard.
Yet losing you?
It would be a death I could not bear.


So I chose you
and with you, life.
To fight, to live
and to love.
It is you two that keep this heart beating with hope
and this mind curious to see what beauty
you will bring to this often ugly and selfish world.