One thought of you passes through my mind, then another~ Before I know it I'm being dragged in from the sun and swallowed by the darkness of missing you. Your smile, your voice... They lure me to stay, to remember what once was but now is a gaping abyss inside. When I search in the ever lapping tides of my yesterday hoping to pull out just one memory I can comfort myself with my hands come up empty. Were you ever real? Or just a ghost of what I needed? Doesn't matter now~ I can't even pretend I ever mattered to you. One thought, two and I am taken over again, enveloped and battered in the questions you never answered. I pray for memory loss to keep this heart from forever breaking. ~Stacy J French