~My (New and Improved) View Of the World~
It seems something is happening as I grow older, I just don't care about people that don't care about or even try to get to know me. I spent a great many years of my life trying to make people happy...My childhood was full of heartbreak as I tried to do and be what everyone else wanted of me. I didn't have a feeling of self and very little if any self esteem. It wasn't a choice I made, to be a people please, it was just the way I was. I was that girl that instead of counting my blessings for the friends I did have, would stress and fight to win the love of the people I didn't have. I would do anything for anyone and yet expect nothing of anyone else. Why would anyone do anything for me? I was just "Stacy"...Not worth anything. Soon the way of thinking came true for me because friends I was close to for years would seem to leave me behind as they moved on. My world consisted of a need to be liked and understood. Now as my 39th birthday approaches and I...