Life Through The Eyes of Stacy

I am so pissed right now that I don't know what to do. I cannot believe the actions or rather in actions of my family and others. It escapes me how the hell my own father could marry his girlfriend without telling anyone. Not me or my sister or even his own sisters.  That coupled with what is going on with my soon to be ex husband....All that keeps going through my mind is that I have absolutely NO control over my loved ones. I can see a train coming at my own father and kids and there is not a damn thing I can do about it because the people who should be listening either won't or can't. My opinion of my father's girlfriend-or rather wife- have no bearing on my being upset right now.  I don't know her well enough to form an opinion.  She has surprised me in the past few months with her seemingly caring way with my ailing father yet all I hear from both of them from day one is how much they fight. Tonight I come on face book to find that he has changed his status f...

 Now that I am divorcing my husband my life is more of a mess than it was when we were together. Hard to understand, I know but I never imagined he would go from our home into another with no stop in between and no care for the affect it has on our kids.  He argues about who gets what piece of furniture, who will pay what bill and who the kids will be with and when.  Honestly, I want to be fair to him on all fronts. I don't want him to walk out with less than me or feel like he has been taken advantage of but he doesn't seem to have the same feelings. Its like he can't wait to screw me hard to the wall. The fact is that K and I never argued a whole lot in the 13 years we were married. We didn't not argue either.  We just kinda existed day to day, he working two jobs and giving all his extra time to volunteer at the fire department and I was trying to be a good Mom, fight my depression and find my way.  A Mom who worked sporadically depending on whether or not K...